sleep tight...

*As i lay you down to sleep, i hear the sweet whispers as you speak, As we pray to the lord above, we thank him for his everlasting love. I pray you sleep well through the night, and wake in the morning and hug me tight, We thank You God for all everything, and are thankful you forgive us for our sins. When i tuck you into bed, i kiss you on your tiny forhead.. Sleeping peacful in the night... i trust in God everything will be alright*

I always think of things when i rock benny to sleep at night... and this is something i say everynight to him!
I am so thankful for him, I love my little man, i couldnt imagine my life without him!
Mommy loves you little Benjamin John... for always and forever!
xoxoxo

~*Friends*~

Wise WOMEN once told me... *Friends are the family you get to choose*..... How true is that?
Friends are very precious to me now a days.. where i break down and cry... where i get so angry i could burst out of my skin... where i could hug them all day... whenever i am in their presence...
This past week a playgroup i attend has been cancled until further notice...
I do have to say this past year has been a big stepping stone in my life to how i deal with things emotionally and Spiritually.. and i do have to give the credit to my girlfriends...
I never was good "with other women friends" I always got into fights with them.. competed with them... just tried to be better... But this past year God introduced me to some amazing mothers.. and amazing children... Whom have taught me so much about being a mother and gave me a good time doing it...
If it wasnt for these moms.. i would never to be able to say.. "He's ok" or not worry about my son coking because a wise woman told me God gave them really good gag refluxes.. he'll cough it up... or even put him on his belly... trust me.. hes a belly boy...
Yes.. these little things have helped me with my anxiety with being a mom.. I never thought that i would be the worry wart mother but boy was i wrong...
"I love how great this is as friends.. lets never hold anthing back and never ruin this.. i love this" as hard as this was to follow... i tried my hardest to... i promise! and because of this i have learned to not hold back!
In these times we had some pretty awesome days LOTS of hot summer days on the beach (i think it was our favorite place to be) even though at powder time we all got a bit cranky.. but on the drive home we waved good bye and said see you next week...=) (this makes me smile) or pumpkin picking with the crew... and panting them.. even if painting ourselves happened along with it... Christmas cookies GALORE up to my ceiling just so my little buddies could have some sugary fun! Valentines days and birthdays!
1 year can bring so much joy and so many laughs and tears... just to think that there is always someone out there to answer ANY question i had!
I do have to say... when i was planning my wedding.. i was scared that i didnt have "enough" friends to invite.. and was a little embarassed but God blessed me with WONDERFUL girlfriends whom helped me plan my day and took the time to sit on 3 way.. well actually 4 way for a few min even though we know it was a busy day.. just to discuss dresses and colors... all the melt downs and all the exciting times!
I would of never known how to measure my childs feet the correct way if it wasnt for these girls... or or learn whats right for me as a mother and the decisions i make are the right ones...
I love these girls... each and every one of them! They all hold a special place in my heart.. each and every one of their children hold a special place in my heart!
But i feel as if God has blessed me with this home.. to help take the stress off and invite woman into my home with their children so hopefully we can continue this friendship!
I am sorry for rambling on.. but i had so much to say and a wise woman once told me to write it all down because you can look through it and delete what you dont want... but in this one i didnt delete anything... i ment every word of it!
I <3 my playgroup moms!

Here are some pics of our fun times~




this is one of my favorites!



painitng pumpkins...





the final products!



the Christmas cookie project!



Here is my favorite picture on my favorite day with my favorite friends!



*Friends are the family that you get to choose* So very true...
I know there are so many pictures.. so many fun times... so many memories! So much that 1 year can hold!

Home Owners!

Well here we are today very very thankful for everything we have! May i mention that i have the worlds best husband ever! Reason being...
1.. he gave me the most bestest child in the world
2.. he is responsible
3.. he loves me and our son more then life itself
4.. He works very very hard for his family!
5. He bought us a house.....
the list goes on and on and on....

Well we are home owners now.. and loving every miniute of it! We have been officially living here for 2 weeks... and boy has it been busy... we are eventaully planning on redoing the whole house but we have 30 years to do that.. so now we are doing little touch ups.. nothing a can of spackle and paint cant fix... but most of all we are loving every minute of it! Playing in our back yard, front yard.. drive way... you get th point! The first week we were here it did nothing but rain.. which i think was all Gods plan.. it was to make me stay in and get the things done that needed to be done... ;) what a smart man! He knew that we would want to go play but yet so much to do.. he even blessed us with wonderful weekend weather just in time for daddy to be home and play with us! Benny is getting use to the fact that his room is now mimi's and mommy and daddys is dewys... but its my dog i am worried about.. she still thinks we are going home... (to the apt) but i guess she'll get use to that too... we are also trying to dehumanize her as well.. with sitting on the couch eating when we do.. sitting whereever we are trying to control us... rather then us control her... she sneaks up into the bed at night but hey i cant help but snuggle her becuase she is so stinking warm.. and these past nights have been so cold.. where i actually had to put a sace heater on in the morning jsut to warm me up!
I have to say being a home owner is awesome! but its even more awesomer to share it with my sisters and her family.. its nice to have them eat over every night.. and play in the back yard for hours with benny while my sis and i just sit inside... yes... we giggled tonight about it.. the 4 year old and 9 year old watch the 1 year old... but the Pitt Bull watches them all! she would never let anything happen to them!
I love my faimly and i am so happy that i was blessed with everything i have so i can share! I pray though that i can change my attitude a little bit because doing so much has left me grouchy at times and being so happy i dont want anyone to think i am un happy! God Has blessed me over and beyond what i think i deserve! <3 Thank You God!

Tired....

Well here i sit... the week before i move into my NEW HOME! And i am so tired... I am so tired of all the stress that is put into the whole thing... i hate to pack, i hate to look at the empty room that you can hear you own voice in it when you talk ... i hate how not homey it is... Tonight i cleaned out my stove... and i still have so much to do... i dont want to just throw things in a box... i want this to be orginized.. I feel as if there is so much to do in little time.. and on top of it still be mom and wife.. cook clean wash wipe.. you get the point.. I feel like i should be excited about this... but im not...maybe it will all be changed the day we move....
Though... I can not wait to have my own house that i can paint and decorate how ever i want.. and i can not wait to sit in my own backyard and play with my dog and son... and drink my coffee while benny plays in his sand box!
I do also have to say how thankful i am... I am so thankful that God has been in control the whole time.. from the time we started to look.. Leading us from house to house.. none of them fitting the requirements we wanted... or yet would be in our price range... except 1... but like i said... God was in control... I prayed and prayed for God to show me that this was right... and he did... and that did not happen.. saddened by this we kinda gave up.. looking at house to house.. nothing that we felt even comfortable to make an offer or just settle on... God knew what he was doing the whole time..
So on tuesday.. our prayers will be answered and we will be home owners! The family gatherings, the parties, the hard times and the good times that we will create as a family.. as "The Zimblemans" are exciting and good...Something great to look forward to!
So for now.. i am going to go to sleep.. because i am tired... because tomorrow is another day... tomorrow is a start of a new begining...
Good Night

mother mother....

Well today we went to the dentist...for the first time.... yes for benny... well as we didnt expect to go at such a young age.. we kinda had to...
I still give Benny a bottle.. yes.. and i put juice in it.. yes he goes to bed with it.. and yes.. he carries it around (when we are home or in the car) He had recently fell and chipped his tooth... so his teeth started to discolor a bit.. me being nervous i made him a dentist appt.. My dentist said.. that he is perfectly healthy.. there is nothing wrong with what i am doing... since I AM THE MOM and yes he said i should take the bottle away... but he did not yell at me about it.. he actually told me his son has the bottle as well still.. and goes to bed with it.. and he puts juice in it... yeah... and his son is 19 months! He also said that if i brush his teeth if i could do a toothbrush. that would be good but he also said a simple wipe with a wash cloth will be fine...=)
I have heard many things about 1 year old and bottles.. juice in bottles.. yada yada.... yeah its "wrong to do it" but i do...
Benjamin is my first child... yes i may not be a perfect mother.. i may give him candy, juice, chips.. but i never get a pat on the back for giving him the healthy things too..and i know one thing that i do give him is LOVE... I love my son more then life itself! My son is happy, healthy.. and i love how his smile can make my worst day so much better... He is a blessing in my life! He is my life!
Benny... mommy loves you!

Still toys....

There are those days where you cant keep up with cleaning up the toys because the second you clean them up and turn your back to get the next room they are out just as fast... Well it is even worse i would say when the toys just sit where they did the following night because thats where you put them...
Today my baby boy was not himself.. very clingy and whiney... (this was ll in the am) so i just figured he was doing his "normal thing" and being his now a days "normal whiney man" way... so i put him to bed... i straighten up the little toys he played with and did my normal thing... He wakes up crying... screaming crying.. i go in after a few min and he had fell and bumped his mouth on his crib.. so i snuggle him a bit and make it all better... His new thing is whenever i am around he just seems that it is necessary to whine.. fake... just to get my attention... doesnt bother me.. but i know it bothers others.. but anywho thats why i just thought it was a normal day... I go out to the livingroom start to think of what to prepare for lunch and thankfully my mother called and was on her way... little did i know my poor boy was going to change my plans for the day.....
He was eating lunch and all over his tray he throws up.. who knows what it was.. but me i had no idea how to handle it.. it was like i had never seen throw up be4.. Now i can handle poop.. i can handle blood (well now i can) and i can handle a few other things.. but throw up.. BLAHT! So again thankfully my mom was there to help me not "freak out"so through out the day we set up on the couch and layed there for the day... now if u know my son.. he doesnt just ever "lay" there... even in my tummy he didnt just "lay" there... so for sure there was something wrong..
Today i became a pro at catching throwup in my hands...and praying to God to heal my baby boy~ then finally i thought let me get a bucket.. a 1 year old can do a bucket right? yes i was right... he held on to the side yelling into the bucket and throwing up... my poor little sickey!
so after daddy got home he was going on 1 hour without throwing up... "could this be it" could i have gotten through the worst? (Mind you my house stinks like throw up and nasty) so now i have help someone to hold my baby boy so i can throw the throw up clothes in the sink into the washer and clean the rugs and couch...
So now here we are 9:39 p.m. and we have not only been "knock on wood" "Throw up free" but also we have held down 1 bottle of gatoraid (his baby bottle) and 2 bowles of white rice.. Also we have a smile on all our faces.. necklaces around his neck and playing with few little toys he can find (the vaccume being one of them)
Hopefully we can get through the night and God did heal my baby boy and it was only a short virus! I do have to say.. i would much rather clean up the toys that still sit there lonely and quiet then throw up any day! Thankyou God for making my baby boy feel better!

*Boys will be Boys*

This Blog is dedicated to my boys: Benjamin John Sr. and Benjamin John Jr.




Boys will be boys.. But i do have to say the 2 boys i have are pretty awesome...

My Husband.. it drives me nuts how he leaves his socks ALL OVER the house... and his tshirts he stuffs them into the corner of the bed in the middle of the night when he gets to hot... or how he hangs his shirts on the back of the dining room chairs... but i do have to say i dont mind picking up after him.. because i am so lucky that he is WILLING and wants to work for his family... Even though he doesnt like pickles or mayo or anything creamy... i will still cook his favorite foods make them as plain as i can... because i love him! I will still pick up his socks and shirts just because it makes me think of him while he is gone and makes me miss him even more and more every min of the day and get excited when it gets closer to the time he gets home and pray for him all day that he gets home safely!! I love my husband and i dont think that i can say it enough... or loud enough... i am so thankful for him! He is perfect in every way! I love falling inlove with him more and more every day! I love that he falls in love with me more every day! I love that he is an awesome father! and i love that his son adores him more and more every day! I love my Husband! he is a dream come true my knight in shining armor!

My son:
Adorable thats all i can say! He drives me nuts by pulling on my pajama pants and pulls them down... ALL DAY LONG....or how he picks up the phone and calls people and they call me back yelling at me to control my child... or the fact that he is just as a pick eater as his father is....but like i said i wouldnt change it for the world! I love my son... he is so funny and cute.. i laugh all day with him ... even after i just yelled at him not to touch the dog bowl... and he dilibratly touches it and swirls whatever is in his tiny hands around in a circle and says "no no no" but in the cutest little voice... that i just have to run over to him and give him kisses and make him laugh all day! I am so thankful i am able to stay home with him to see his every move and every doing every day! I love how my son loves the beach... just as i did when i was young... i love how he runs right for the water as soon as i put him down... i love how he says "yum yum" while he is eating his dinner... i love how he snuggles me as soon as he wakes up for a good half hour! I love how his little lips make a circle and says "ohhhooooo" "waaaas daaaaat" in the cutest voice ever... while he points to the shiniest thing in the room.... I love my son I love that he is mine! I love that God Blessed me with him!

I love My family I love my life! My life as Mrs. Zimbleman! forever and ever!
God.. thankyou for picking me to be this baby's mommy and to be this mans wife! Thankyou!

Fathers Day!

1 John 3 vs. 1
See how very much our Father loves us, for He calls us His children, and that is what we are!


God i thankyou for being my father.. to be there for me to help me guide my son to be as u are! Thankyou for forgiving my sins and being there to help me back up when i fall... to open the door when the other one has closed.. Thankou for everything you have given me... Thankyou for Loving me! Thankyou! Thankyou!



Well today is fathers day! I am so thankful for the father i have... Yes times growing up werent always the way they should be.. but my father tried his hardest to be the best he could... There was always a roof over my head.. my belly was always full... even spending the weeks/weekends at the shore were always enjoyable for both my father and I! Today is a day to recognize my father.. he is an awesome father! and an awesome Grandfather! i love you dad!



My husband:
He is an outstanding man! I can not say it enough... he is an awesome father.. and awesome husband.. an awesome best friend! He is everything! My world would be lost with out him in it! Happy fathers day to him! he deserves a special day as this to himself! Today.. we will be spending it together.. and i am very thankful for that.. i am very thankful for him and i want him to know it! Happy Fathers day babe!




Happy Fathers Day!

Carnival!

Last night.....
Last night we went to the Carnival...We have been doing this forever.. be4 we had kids.. there is Just something about the carnivlal.. the bright lights.. the smell of the food.. kids laughing and screaming... it just brings such joy to my night! I guess thats why i love the Boardwalk as well!!! I do have to say though.. i was pretty sad when i saw that they didnt have the "Zipper" set up... but i guess that that is better on the safety aspect... I just never had a fear for any rides.. i would still go on them even if the night be4 it was stuck upside down for 1/2 hour.. and they "sware" that it was fine or that the old rickety thing was wobbling around while you were up in the air a million miles up and no way down~ God really has protected me in my crazy doings! LOL! Well last night was benny's first "real" carnival.. i mean i took him last year but being only a few months old.. he really didnt get it... so this year.. we got our hands stamped (all access to every ride) I feel so blessed that my son has no fear... his first ride was the Carousel... HE LOVED IT!!!! Laughing and giggling the whole time.. swingng his head back and forth to the music... then when it was finished.. he followed it by an "AAWWW DONE" follwed by screams of "NO NO NO!!!!" Yes that was my kid screaming... but very quickly was he distracted by his cousins on another ride! he also loved squeezing into a ride that went high in the air (for a 1 year old) that flew! He was so cute with his little feet just sticking straight out.. lol! And also on the Ferris wheel... it almost put him to sleep... after we got off of that the Carnival was slowing down and all the craziesness was dying down.. so we decided to take advantage of the situation and go on more rides.. (by this time it was 10:00) lol Benny went on the little beep beep cars.. with his big cousin Kylie! My sister and I couldnt stop laughing at his little head peeking over the wheel and how funny he was! so stinking cute! All in all we had an awesome time! The baby enjoyed it too! We got home by 11!!! I cant wait to take him to the Boardwalk and let him ride on more rides! He is just such an awesome baby fearless nonetheless... and that makes me happy.. maybe one day when he is bigger he will be the one going on the "Upsidedown" rides! lol! maybe.... I am so thankful he has 2 amazing cousins to help him on the rides too! we wold be lost with out them! I love doing things with my sister as our husbands work overtime for us to be able to do the things we do! I am very thankful for them! I love my family and I love my sister and her family! We would be lost without eachother!

I woldnt be who i am today if i werent for the choices i made!

Well this is my first post... I have been wanting to start blogging about my every day life for a while.. but when it comes to writing i am not the greatest... so bare with me... i have so much in and on my mind lately good things and bad things.. so maybe if i write it and get it out... i will feel better rather then keeping it all bottled up....=)
Well..lets start...
Life hasnt always been that easy for me... I was always the kid who never did good in school, always got into fights... friends came and went... but the reason is.. is because of the choices i made... Now me as an adult i look back at those dumb choices i made... i wouln't change them.. reason being is because if i didn't make those choices i probobly wouldn't be the woman who i am today!
This past five years have been tough~ I met my Husband in April of 2005 when i came bacl from St. Thomas with an "ex". I met him in Prospectors... i thought he was the cutest kid there... so one night when i was "scooping icecream" he was behind me and he said... "what ya doing tonight? wanna come to my house.. i have a hot tub" and if u know me.. i was alway looking to do something.. i dont like to be alone! so i went... from there on out we never been apart! i moved in with him about 3 months down the line... He was my best friend... my love! I knew from there it would be forever! Dont get me wrong we had our times.. but in the end we always made up!
His family would always get in between our relationship.. (the ben ken and keri relationship) so one day we decided we were going to move out and get a place of our own to see if it was really real.. and to see if it was really what we wanted! So we got up packed our 1 room and moved out to 118 A Gardenia drive... Best move ever! we didnt have much but our families helped us out with as much as they could! Hand~me~downs... buying us stuff... all the greatness!

So here we are out of Bens dads house not even a week and we go to a wedding.. the following monday I took a pregnancy test... i just thought that i would just take it and get it over with and stop being parinoid and then i look down... and POSITIVE! I couldnt believe my eyes! I was shocked so i took 2 more and they were both POSITIVE!!! I had no idea what to do next where to go how to do it... so this being 815 am i called ben (mind u.. he has been at work only 15 min of his day and he had to sit in a cubby hole all ay by himself and had to be quiet!!!) Me i am screaming on the phone... and all he can say is "ok" "Go to your sisters" now Thankfully my sister lived only a block from me right behind my house... i ran there... busted down her door and rushed her into her room and told her..She made me feel so much better she directed me to what to do.. and how to do it... Then we went and told my mom.. she was so happy! Finally her baby was having a baby! That day i will never forget! That was the day my life changed!
I would have to say my pregnancy was pretty easy.. minus the headaches... 2nd trimester ALL DAY sickness... test after test.. blood draw after blood draw... i wouldnt change it for the world! I was pregnant! so excited! and to tell u what i cant wait to do it all again to have another one!!!! Call me crazy but in the end... its all worth it to me!
When i had my baby it was easy! Ben was amazed and was amazing when i had Benny.. I was very thankful to have my sister and mom there as well.. They were the best! Idk what i am going to do with the next kid because one of them is going to have to stay with benners... so that day will be hard! But we will deal with that one when the time comes!
To be a mother.. something i cant describe!
It is the best thing ever! As a little girl i use to stuff barbie clothes into my barbies shirts to make them pregnant.. and teddy bears under my shirt... to make the perfect little round bellies! lol!!! i guess it was because i was so obsessed with babies!
Life was perfect.., i idnt think anything else was more spectacular then being a mom.. then i got engaged! Life was now being complete!
I would have to say.. i was so stressed out... (even though there was no reason to be) I still was.. but in the end.. the day was perfect... just as everyone told me it would be... i had not a care in the world except that my family was complete!
God has blessed me with such a perfect little family... and so much more! I am so thankful to have what i have and to have made the decisions in life i made... because like i said... It wouldnt of made me who i am today....=) So what that i didnt get good grades...(dont ever tell my kids that because i will promise u.. they will be straight A kids!) I am a stay at home mom with my family... and i have everything i need... i dont need a college backround... to be a mom/wife... i think it just come natural to me! i love my life and i wouldnt change it for the world!
KLZ