Tired....

Well here i sit... the week before i move into my NEW HOME! And i am so tired... I am so tired of all the stress that is put into the whole thing... i hate to pack, i hate to look at the empty room that you can hear you own voice in it when you talk ... i hate how not homey it is... Tonight i cleaned out my stove... and i still have so much to do... i dont want to just throw things in a box... i want this to be orginized.. I feel as if there is so much to do in little time.. and on top of it still be mom and wife.. cook clean wash wipe.. you get the point.. I feel like i should be excited about this... but im not...maybe it will all be changed the day we move....
Though... I can not wait to have my own house that i can paint and decorate how ever i want.. and i can not wait to sit in my own backyard and play with my dog and son... and drink my coffee while benny plays in his sand box!
I do also have to say how thankful i am... I am so thankful that God has been in control the whole time.. from the time we started to look.. Leading us from house to house.. none of them fitting the requirements we wanted... or yet would be in our price range... except 1... but like i said... God was in control... I prayed and prayed for God to show me that this was right... and he did... and that did not happen.. saddened by this we kinda gave up.. looking at house to house.. nothing that we felt even comfortable to make an offer or just settle on... God knew what he was doing the whole time..
So on tuesday.. our prayers will be answered and we will be home owners! The family gatherings, the parties, the hard times and the good times that we will create as a family.. as "The Zimblemans" are exciting and good...Something great to look forward to!
So for now.. i am going to go to sleep.. because i am tired... because tomorrow is another day... tomorrow is a start of a new begining...
Good Night

mother mother....

Well today we went to the dentist...for the first time.... yes for benny... well as we didnt expect to go at such a young age.. we kinda had to...
I still give Benny a bottle.. yes.. and i put juice in it.. yes he goes to bed with it.. and yes.. he carries it around (when we are home or in the car) He had recently fell and chipped his tooth... so his teeth started to discolor a bit.. me being nervous i made him a dentist appt.. My dentist said.. that he is perfectly healthy.. there is nothing wrong with what i am doing... since I AM THE MOM and yes he said i should take the bottle away... but he did not yell at me about it.. he actually told me his son has the bottle as well still.. and goes to bed with it.. and he puts juice in it... yeah... and his son is 19 months! He also said that if i brush his teeth if i could do a toothbrush. that would be good but he also said a simple wipe with a wash cloth will be fine...=)
I have heard many things about 1 year old and bottles.. juice in bottles.. yada yada.... yeah its "wrong to do it" but i do...
Benjamin is my first child... yes i may not be a perfect mother.. i may give him candy, juice, chips.. but i never get a pat on the back for giving him the healthy things too..and i know one thing that i do give him is LOVE... I love my son more then life itself! My son is happy, healthy.. and i love how his smile can make my worst day so much better... He is a blessing in my life! He is my life!
Benny... mommy loves you!