I woldnt be who i am today if i werent for the choices i made!

Well this is my first post... I have been wanting to start blogging about my every day life for a while.. but when it comes to writing i am not the greatest... so bare with me... i have so much in and on my mind lately good things and bad things.. so maybe if i write it and get it out... i will feel better rather then keeping it all bottled up....=)
Well..lets start...
Life hasnt always been that easy for me... I was always the kid who never did good in school, always got into fights... friends came and went... but the reason is.. is because of the choices i made... Now me as an adult i look back at those dumb choices i made... i wouln't change them.. reason being is because if i didn't make those choices i probobly wouldn't be the woman who i am today!
This past five years have been tough~ I met my Husband in April of 2005 when i came bacl from St. Thomas with an "ex". I met him in Prospectors... i thought he was the cutest kid there... so one night when i was "scooping icecream" he was behind me and he said... "what ya doing tonight? wanna come to my house.. i have a hot tub" and if u know me.. i was alway looking to do something.. i dont like to be alone! so i went... from there on out we never been apart! i moved in with him about 3 months down the line... He was my best friend... my love! I knew from there it would be forever! Dont get me wrong we had our times.. but in the end we always made up!
His family would always get in between our relationship.. (the ben ken and keri relationship) so one day we decided we were going to move out and get a place of our own to see if it was really real.. and to see if it was really what we wanted! So we got up packed our 1 room and moved out to 118 A Gardenia drive... Best move ever! we didnt have much but our families helped us out with as much as they could! Hand~me~downs... buying us stuff... all the greatness!

So here we are out of Bens dads house not even a week and we go to a wedding.. the following monday I took a pregnancy test... i just thought that i would just take it and get it over with and stop being parinoid and then i look down... and POSITIVE! I couldnt believe my eyes! I was shocked so i took 2 more and they were both POSITIVE!!! I had no idea what to do next where to go how to do it... so this being 815 am i called ben (mind u.. he has been at work only 15 min of his day and he had to sit in a cubby hole all ay by himself and had to be quiet!!!) Me i am screaming on the phone... and all he can say is "ok" "Go to your sisters" now Thankfully my sister lived only a block from me right behind my house... i ran there... busted down her door and rushed her into her room and told her..She made me feel so much better she directed me to what to do.. and how to do it... Then we went and told my mom.. she was so happy! Finally her baby was having a baby! That day i will never forget! That was the day my life changed!
I would have to say my pregnancy was pretty easy.. minus the headaches... 2nd trimester ALL DAY sickness... test after test.. blood draw after blood draw... i wouldnt change it for the world! I was pregnant! so excited! and to tell u what i cant wait to do it all again to have another one!!!! Call me crazy but in the end... its all worth it to me!
When i had my baby it was easy! Ben was amazed and was amazing when i had Benny.. I was very thankful to have my sister and mom there as well.. They were the best! Idk what i am going to do with the next kid because one of them is going to have to stay with benners... so that day will be hard! But we will deal with that one when the time comes!
To be a mother.. something i cant describe!
It is the best thing ever! As a little girl i use to stuff barbie clothes into my barbies shirts to make them pregnant.. and teddy bears under my shirt... to make the perfect little round bellies! lol!!! i guess it was because i was so obsessed with babies!
Life was perfect.., i idnt think anything else was more spectacular then being a mom.. then i got engaged! Life was now being complete!
I would have to say.. i was so stressed out... (even though there was no reason to be) I still was.. but in the end.. the day was perfect... just as everyone told me it would be... i had not a care in the world except that my family was complete!
God has blessed me with such a perfect little family... and so much more! I am so thankful to have what i have and to have made the decisions in life i made... because like i said... It wouldnt of made me who i am today....=) So what that i didnt get good grades...(dont ever tell my kids that because i will promise u.. they will be straight A kids!) I am a stay at home mom with my family... and i have everything i need... i dont need a college backround... to be a mom/wife... i think it just come natural to me! i love my life and i wouldnt change it for the world!
KLZ