some thoughts...

So here are some thoughts of mine....
I went to the store today not only is my son a maniac but i just cant seem to get some "retail therepy" with a wacky one year old yelling and pulling things down and screaming through out the store... so my question is... how am i going to do it with 2? My anxeity shoots through the roof when i thin of it.. how i cant even go to the post office with 1.. how am i going to do it with 2? (possibly 3 or 4) I know that i wanted this i wanted 2 babies close in age so they could be friends... but the way i have been feeling with being sick not able to catch up on the wash and cleaning... i feel "not as excited" that i am pregnant with this one as i was with Benny... maybe because i know what to expect and its not something new... why does it have to be 9 months long... i understand that the baby has to grow and get healthy but come on... lol
On another note.. i am excited for a few things this summer...
The BEACH! i can not wait to plop my butt in my beach chair and put my feet in the sand... honestly.. i dont care at that point that i will be at my middle of my pregnancy.... and by the end of the summer i will be 8-9 months... (and prob swollen) but to think of the beach makes me so excited! I love the beach! when i see pics on Fb of the Beach or pics of anytype of summer activity it makes me excited.. i look at pics that were taken in my back yard of my pool and green grass! I cant wait to see green grass and have some crabs out on my patio with my family! I also cant wait to celebrate Benny's 2nd birthday! WOW! i cant believe he will be 2 years old. i feel like i just told everyone i was pregnant with him! ALso another good thing about this summer is i have more family i get to spend it with.... i have a older but new sister to enjoy these things with... I am excited for these thigns! Did i mention i am excited for summer? lol!
I have alot of things to do in my house be4 then.. i would like to paint the trim outside of my house.. because right now it is ugly baby poop orange... and we want to put down some grass seed to make our grass fuller (idk why ben wants that.. hes the one mowing it) but hey w/e we need to paint our hallway and possibly redo the upstairs... (all depending if we are having a girl or not) Cause if we have a girl she will get Ben and my room and Ben and I will be moving upstairs.. and if we move upstairs that means putting in an alarm system cause otherwise i wont sleep! But if we have a boy... we will make the boys share a room until they are older or the next sibling comes...=)
I am thankful for everything i have... i may complain about it.. but i love everything i have! I love my husband and my growing family! I love that i have a house that i can do these things with!