Ok.. so it has hit me... in 12 weeks i will be a mother of 2! Omg.. what was i thinking? (this is what i am thinking) Dont get me wrong i am super excited to have another baby and so blessed that i am able to carry another gift from God... but let-me-tell-you.... i am very frightened... Alot of people tell me that it is easy to go from 1 to 2 kids... and some say it was the hardest transition to make...
Here are the "worries" i have...
* will i ever be able to leave the house again? (hence i will have a 2 1/2 year old and a newborn)
* will my love be as equal as one for another
* can i do this?
* will my house work get done?
* how will i tell my 2 year old to be quiet when the baby is sleeping (mind you he is very vocal these days)
* How will i grocery shop
* how will i use the bathroom....without a child either on my lap or on my boob
* will i be able to get a shower?
The list goes on and on...
As Ben and I were driving to the beach today he asked me where was i going to put the baby in the new van? Behind me or on the side where Benny is (where he is well able to be reached incase something drops or he needs something from me and will be easily reached). I had already had that planned... and i think that my husband was pretty impressed that i had it all figured out! but i had told him.. "Babe... i dont think i will be leaving the house anytime soon without some one else with me (him, my mom or sister)
I am very excited as well.. not just scared... i am so excited to give Benny the best gift ever... hpefully one day his Best friend... I know that i would be lost without my sister.. and every day i am thankful for her and thankful to have a best friend like her! i am also excited to "redo" things i did and didnt do with my Benny.
I cant wait to be a mommy of 2... just a little nervous... but i know with God i can do all things! So i put my 100% trust in God!
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