On Sat i will be 27! Where did the time go? is this where i thought i would be when i turned 27 when i was 19? I think so... did i ever think i would get there... no... but i did! Together me and my husband have been through our whole 20's together and shared so many tears, so many laughs, so many great times together! and i cant wait to spend the rest of our years alive together to do the same!
Then:
slept till 11
worked double shifts to make money
spent money on clothes shoes makeup, nails, hair.. sometimes i would go get my hair washed and blowdryed out "just because" i could
partied alllllll night
life was about me and my "boyfriend" and how much fun we could have
did wash if i fet like it.. if i didnt have anthing to wear i would buy a "new outfit" for the night and then some
the only responisbilty i had was paying my car and car insurance (which i didnt even do) lol
Sometimes i think about my past and i think how much fun it was... and if i could do it one more time... then i look into both my babies eyes and realize i never want to do that again! I love my life now!
Married to the man of my dreams (who gives me all i want and more!)
sleeping in till 8 am with both babies in my arms! (by 11 we are planning nap time!)
an all nighter consists of a sick child holding for dear life and praying God gives it to me instead of my child!
My job is staying home taking care of the babies and the house (i work more then double shifts.. my shift doesnt end)
money goes to the kids and the house and groceries. maybe once in a while ill buy a 5$ shirt from Walmart!
life is about my family!
the only partying i do is birthday parties and purse parties
wash is mondays and tuesdays!
and i have more responsiblity then i have ever had!
This isnt me complaining about "life" because i LOVE my life now! and iwouldnt trade it for the world! i would take dirty diapers and crying babies over a night of drinking any day! God has blessed me so much these past 27 years!
Thankyou God i wouldnt have it with out your hand in my life guiding me the "right way" I am sorry i have slipped away .. but i came back and i am glad i did!
Thursday, November 17, 2011
Tuesday, September 6, 2011
Itchy itchy! (Pruritic urticarial papules and plaques of pregnancy)
Not only am i itchy to meet my new little boy... but my skin is paying for it as well!!
When i had Benny about a week or so after i broke out in a rash across my belly that not only itched like heck but when i itched it, it burned.... I looked all over the internet, talked to doctors, and even saw a dermitoligist... no one had an answer.... they just said.. "oh you must of gotten poison ivy from somewhere.... Nowi know myself... i do not break out from poison ivy this way... sometimes a little here and there but nothing this bad... and for it to be on my belly...(now growing on to my boobs and thighs) i would have had to been rolling around in it... }=/ so not the case..... Because i was not only up all night with a newborn nursing, but itching as well... i came across a small comment on google that a lady had put up... and from there it gave me all the answers!
*Small red bumps growing in or on stretch marks
*red burning
*irritating
*can not stop itching
*feels like you can rip your skin off
This lady had said she had tried all the ointments and nothing worked... but the only thing that had worked was nasty stinky old "Grandfathers Pine tar soap" and trust me it does not smell pretty but it does the trick.... and by this point you dont care what you smell like... as long as you arent itching anymore!
So i gave it a try and after weeks of itching it started to clear up in a matter of a couple days and i found myself getting less showers a day (cause i would get up to 3 oatmeal baths a day and 3 showers a day!) (NO LIE!!)
So the reason i am writing about this now... is because it has started again... they say it only happens one time but there are cases where it does come into the second and 3rd pregnancies... but it is more common when pregnant or when you had a boy...(something in the male hormone) So yes it has started again.... it was getting bad and everytime i went to the market i would forget to get my pine tar soap..... i used Benadryl for the time being but i felt like that just sugar coated it and when it would start to itch again it would be worse! SO 3 days ago i finally remembered it! Let me tell you... it has already started to clear up! i stink like an old man yes.... but i feel better!!!! I highly reccomend this to people suffering from PUPPP (that is what it is called) short for Pruritic urticarial papules and plaques of pregnancy... (you can also use it to clear up acne (which it has on my shoulders and back already) poison ivy, and bad bug bites)
It is real ladies.... and annoying and i wish someone would of helped me when i was in desperate need!
So Pine Tar soap it is until it is gone!!!! hope it leaves sooner then later! I already will have alot to do as a new mommy again but this time with a 2 year old.. i dont need something else making me uncomfortable!
When i had Benny about a week or so after i broke out in a rash across my belly that not only itched like heck but when i itched it, it burned.... I looked all over the internet, talked to doctors, and even saw a dermitoligist... no one had an answer.... they just said.. "oh you must of gotten poison ivy from somewhere.... Nowi know myself... i do not break out from poison ivy this way... sometimes a little here and there but nothing this bad... and for it to be on my belly...(now growing on to my boobs and thighs) i would have had to been rolling around in it... }=/ so not the case..... Because i was not only up all night with a newborn nursing, but itching as well... i came across a small comment on google that a lady had put up... and from there it gave me all the answers!
*Small red bumps growing in or on stretch marks
*red burning
*irritating
*can not stop itching
*feels like you can rip your skin off
This lady had said she had tried all the ointments and nothing worked... but the only thing that had worked was nasty stinky old "Grandfathers Pine tar soap" and trust me it does not smell pretty but it does the trick.... and by this point you dont care what you smell like... as long as you arent itching anymore!
So i gave it a try and after weeks of itching it started to clear up in a matter of a couple days and i found myself getting less showers a day (cause i would get up to 3 oatmeal baths a day and 3 showers a day!) (NO LIE!!)
So the reason i am writing about this now... is because it has started again... they say it only happens one time but there are cases where it does come into the second and 3rd pregnancies... but it is more common when pregnant or when you had a boy...(something in the male hormone) So yes it has started again.... it was getting bad and everytime i went to the market i would forget to get my pine tar soap..... i used Benadryl for the time being but i felt like that just sugar coated it and when it would start to itch again it would be worse! SO 3 days ago i finally remembered it! Let me tell you... it has already started to clear up! i stink like an old man yes.... but i feel better!!!! I highly reccomend this to people suffering from PUPPP (that is what it is called) short for Pruritic urticarial papules and plaques of pregnancy... (you can also use it to clear up acne (which it has on my shoulders and back already) poison ivy, and bad bug bites)
It is real ladies.... and annoying and i wish someone would of helped me when i was in desperate need!
So Pine Tar soap it is until it is gone!!!! hope it leaves sooner then later! I already will have alot to do as a new mommy again but this time with a 2 year old.. i dont need something else making me uncomfortable!
Thursday, July 21, 2011
I am 2!
He is 2....some how some way i have a toddler... where the time went i have no idea!
I am into everything.... but in my eyes i am just exploring:
I am into cars, trucks, and anything that goes "RRROOOAARRR"
I love to play outside in my yard, at the beach or even at the park but my favorite part is when i can just relax and have a nice cold snack in my outside chair!
Most of all i love my mommy and daddy, Together we are one happy family and we cant wait to meet my little brother in October (or sooner) to make us complete!
I am 2.. and life couldnt be any better!
I am into everything.... but in my eyes i am just exploring:
I am into cars, trucks, and anything that goes "RRROOOAARRR"
I love to play outside in my yard, at the beach or even at the park but my favorite part is when i can just relax and have a nice cold snack in my outside chair!
Most of all i love my mommy and daddy, Together we are one happy family and we cant wait to meet my little brother in October (or sooner) to make us complete!
I am 2.. and life couldnt be any better!
Sunday, July 17, 2011
A mother of 2
Ok.. so it has hit me... in 12 weeks i will be a mother of 2! Omg.. what was i thinking? (this is what i am thinking) Dont get me wrong i am super excited to have another baby and so blessed that i am able to carry another gift from God... but let-me-tell-you.... i am very frightened... Alot of people tell me that it is easy to go from 1 to 2 kids... and some say it was the hardest transition to make...
Here are the "worries" i have...
* will i ever be able to leave the house again? (hence i will have a 2 1/2 year old and a newborn)
* will my love be as equal as one for another
* can i do this?
* will my house work get done?
* how will i tell my 2 year old to be quiet when the baby is sleeping (mind you he is very vocal these days)
* How will i grocery shop
* how will i use the bathroom....without a child either on my lap or on my boob
* will i be able to get a shower?
The list goes on and on...
As Ben and I were driving to the beach today he asked me where was i going to put the baby in the new van? Behind me or on the side where Benny is (where he is well able to be reached incase something drops or he needs something from me and will be easily reached). I had already had that planned... and i think that my husband was pretty impressed that i had it all figured out! but i had told him.. "Babe... i dont think i will be leaving the house anytime soon without some one else with me (him, my mom or sister)
I am very excited as well.. not just scared... i am so excited to give Benny the best gift ever... hpefully one day his Best friend... I know that i would be lost without my sister.. and every day i am thankful for her and thankful to have a best friend like her! i am also excited to "redo" things i did and didnt do with my Benny.
I cant wait to be a mommy of 2... just a little nervous... but i know with God i can do all things! So i put my 100% trust in God!
Here are the "worries" i have...
* will i ever be able to leave the house again? (hence i will have a 2 1/2 year old and a newborn)
* will my love be as equal as one for another
* can i do this?
* will my house work get done?
* how will i tell my 2 year old to be quiet when the baby is sleeping (mind you he is very vocal these days)
* How will i grocery shop
* how will i use the bathroom....without a child either on my lap or on my boob
* will i be able to get a shower?
The list goes on and on...
As Ben and I were driving to the beach today he asked me where was i going to put the baby in the new van? Behind me or on the side where Benny is (where he is well able to be reached incase something drops or he needs something from me and will be easily reached). I had already had that planned... and i think that my husband was pretty impressed that i had it all figured out! but i had told him.. "Babe... i dont think i will be leaving the house anytime soon without some one else with me (him, my mom or sister)
I am very excited as well.. not just scared... i am so excited to give Benny the best gift ever... hpefully one day his Best friend... I know that i would be lost without my sister.. and every day i am thankful for her and thankful to have a best friend like her! i am also excited to "redo" things i did and didnt do with my Benny.
I cant wait to be a mommy of 2... just a little nervous... but i know with God i can do all things! So i put my 100% trust in God!
Thursday, June 2, 2011
1 year married... but 6 years inlove!
*We have accomplished so much together, gotten through the thickest of things and the thinnest of things! But with you by my side i know together we can do ALL things! You are my soul mate, my best friend, my husband! I fall more and more inlove with you every day, even find out new things about you every day! I am so thankful for the things you do for us! You provide, take on stress, and do it all just because you love our family and want the BEST for us! I LOVE you Ben, my world wouldnt be complete without you in it! <3*
*Our Love Story*
6 years ago a young 19 year old me set out to find a job... confused on what i was going to do, I just searched... one day when I was driving to my grandfathers house, I was told to stop at a resturant to put in an application...I thought, "do i really want to drive this far to work everyday?" But little did i know.. this was the begining of my Journey of forever love!
i walked in, filled out an application, and was hired on the spot... no "good" backround for serving... but i was desperate! So i just "did it"
After a few months of working there, while trying to rekindle an old what i thought love, with a long distance relationship i was going to give it one last chance... i went away for 14 days with my ex went to a beautiful island, did the best things, but that love was just not there... When we got back i told him i wanted to go home 2 days earlier then what i was suppose to.. so he bought me a ticket home back to Jersey and i never turned back.... I told myself... i will find love, i will find Mr. Perfect, and he will be everything i ever dreamed of!
So when i got back i went back to work, saddened and broken hearted, but full of faith that "he" was out there... and little did i know he was right under my nose the whole time!
One day... i was doing my sidework getting ready to go home... the "cute butt" (sorry if tmi) Expo guy asked me if i wanted to come to his house and hang out cause alot of people from work were going to be there afterwards i said sure... he reminded me to bring my bathing suit cause he had a hot tub that everyone would be going in... =/ lol! well so i raced home... and picked out my cutest outfit and headed out the door for a night of fun! When i got there, there was only a few people.. but not as many as i thought... but i stayed anyway.. i thought.. eh.. ill just go home in an hour or 2... so the night got late and before i knew it i was in the Hot tub at 4 am Just "cute butt" and I talking... (yes talking thats it!!!!) and yet... i still had NO IDEA what his name was... he was telling me about his life, his family, and past broken heart! I did as well.. i realized how late it was and i told him i had to go... so i got out the tub, and he grabbed my hand, and he said.. "hey i had a good night... but... i forget your name... (lol he is SUPER BAD with names) i laughed.. and i realized he was calling me "babe" all night... and i said, "Its Keri.. but im ok with you calling me babe" =) but i didnt have the guts to tell him i didnt even know his name!!( i eventually asked someone at work the next day what his name was lol)!!! So i ran inside got dressed and he walked me to my car, when i went to say good bye... we leaned in to hug, instead it turned into a kiss! <3
From that day one we hung out EVERY DAY every night together never apart.... My heart was so big and inlove but yet so scared.... "Could this be it?? " no too soon... so days turned into a year, and a year turned into 4... and after 4 after a hard 4 years fighting for him for him to just be ALL MINE , we finally gave it one last chance, we decided... lets move out on our own and see how it goes... so we did! We got our first apartment in the end of Aug. of 2008! We were so excited to be on our own... to do things the way we wanted to.. Leave our shoes in where we wanted and leave a basket of laundry un attended if we wanted to... but little did we know our lives were going to take a dramatic turn once again!!!! after only being "on our own" for 3 weeks... i was late.... yes.. late.. but nothing new to me... i was ALWAYS late.. but this time.. i was a little later then normal... so one day Sept 10th, 2009 to be exact, when ben went to work at 7:30 am, i ran to the store to grab a test (just to ease my mind and remind myself i was ok) I took it... immediatly... 2 lines appeared... (mind u this was at 8 am) i was like.... no way... theres no way.... so i took the 2nd one... same results... i sat there and was so scared... but so happy! once again my heart filled with love! I called Ben at work... and (him having to be quiet) i yelled in the phone... "Babe...i am PREGNANT!!!!!" and he said in the most quietest voice "uhh ok" and i asked him what i should do... and he told me to go to my sisters! so i did! i ran there!!!!
So... here we are in love and on our own and pregnant! Days turned into months and be4 we knew it we had a BEAUTIFUL little boy! Benjamin John Jr. 8 pounds 13 oz, 21 and 3/4 inches long, born at 3:08 am on May 4th, 2009! I looked at Ben as he held our baby and cried.. at that point i realized, here he is... here is the man of my dreams, my world my everything the father of my son! I knew from that day on i was going to be with this man FOREVER!
The first few weeks were hard, but Ben stood behind me and helped me with everything and when i say everything.. i mean he would get up with me in the middle of the night (several times) to nurse Benny cause he said he felt bad because he feels he should be up too "helping" (but i think he was just amazed in our little boy and didnt want to miss a beat in his little life, a smile, a giggle, a sleeping moment)
We moved into a bigger apartment and at that point ben told me i didnt have to work anymore... he wanted me to give my full attention to Benny, and one day the rest of our family, and that he would provide! He would take on the stress of the bills, i just had to take the stress of the house and children! (What an awesome man!!!) so i did! a few days later.. we decided "Lets get married" so we went out got a ring and now we were engaged! (In Novemeber of 2010) Trying to pick a day.. we said... lets just do it... and fast! so we did! May 29th 2010 (yes only 6 months later) we had the 2nd most AMAZING day of our lives and now we are Husband and wife! Wow! husband and wife... to this day i still cant believe i am married to the most AMAZING and hard working man there is! On that day, i couldnt even tell you how excited i was to be married to him! He was mine! all mine!!!
After planning and paying for this wedding all on our own we decided to start looking for a new home... one to buy! We looked and looked and found some potential homes but none that had "Our name, Zimbleman" on it...But here it was under our noses the whole time!!! We have spent days, holidays, summer night walks here! It was my parents house! So on October 2010 (yes 4 months later) we BOUGHT our VERY 1ST HOUSE!!!!!! This is it! Life is complete!!! My Husband, My son, my life is complete! I couldnt ask for more!!!! Life was just to perfect! At that point i couldnt ask for more... but one day... as ben and i were talking we decided Benny needed a sibling! we wanted them close in age, so we started to try in November! That month passed so did decmeber, but when January came (a little frustrated i wasnt pregnant yet) and after (no lie) dozens of pregnancy tests... i told myself... i will buy just ONE more only ONE!!!! And when i got home from the grocery store, i didnt even put away any of my groceries i just so happened to have to pee!!! lol! so i ran in and didnt waste any time... and the results were positive~ POSITIVE!!!! I was going to be a mom of 2! how exciting!!! It was rough in the begining of this pregnancy a little rougher then it was with benny.. but i got through it...
So here we are 6 years later, In our Home inlove more then the first day we fell inlove, with a beautiful son, and another little boy on the way (due in Oct) Life couldnt get any Better! I owe it all to God and my wonderful, loving husband who has given it all to me! Given me more then i would ever imagine plus more! I cant wait to see what God has set for us in the future! One thing i pray for is bens salvation, then i can say that life would be better then Perfect!
I love my husband, and i love our boys! Times can be hard but we wouldnt be as strong if we didnt have to battle through them together!
*Ben, you are my all, you are my everything! Life is complete with you in it <3 I love your more and more EVERY day!and i love our boys more and more every day! Thankyou for them! and Thankyou for being an awesome provider and an awesome husband and an awesome BEST FRIEND!* XOXO!
Its been a long but yet quick 6 years! <3
*Our story of Love*
* This pic is the first pic of us together on the first night we hung out*
*Always together*
*Young and in Love*
*The hottest redneck alive*
*4 years later still SO inlove*
*a day later.. our baby boy was born*
* <3 the men in my life*
*husband and wife*
*so inlove*
*Our Love Story*
6 years ago a young 19 year old me set out to find a job... confused on what i was going to do, I just searched... one day when I was driving to my grandfathers house, I was told to stop at a resturant to put in an application...I thought, "do i really want to drive this far to work everyday?" But little did i know.. this was the begining of my Journey of forever love!
i walked in, filled out an application, and was hired on the spot... no "good" backround for serving... but i was desperate! So i just "did it"
After a few months of working there, while trying to rekindle an old what i thought love, with a long distance relationship i was going to give it one last chance... i went away for 14 days with my ex went to a beautiful island, did the best things, but that love was just not there... When we got back i told him i wanted to go home 2 days earlier then what i was suppose to.. so he bought me a ticket home back to Jersey and i never turned back.... I told myself... i will find love, i will find Mr. Perfect, and he will be everything i ever dreamed of!
So when i got back i went back to work, saddened and broken hearted, but full of faith that "he" was out there... and little did i know he was right under my nose the whole time!
One day... i was doing my sidework getting ready to go home... the "cute butt" (sorry if tmi) Expo guy asked me if i wanted to come to his house and hang out cause alot of people from work were going to be there afterwards i said sure... he reminded me to bring my bathing suit cause he had a hot tub that everyone would be going in... =/ lol! well so i raced home... and picked out my cutest outfit and headed out the door for a night of fun! When i got there, there was only a few people.. but not as many as i thought... but i stayed anyway.. i thought.. eh.. ill just go home in an hour or 2... so the night got late and before i knew it i was in the Hot tub at 4 am Just "cute butt" and I talking... (yes talking thats it!!!!) and yet... i still had NO IDEA what his name was... he was telling me about his life, his family, and past broken heart! I did as well.. i realized how late it was and i told him i had to go... so i got out the tub, and he grabbed my hand, and he said.. "hey i had a good night... but... i forget your name... (lol he is SUPER BAD with names) i laughed.. and i realized he was calling me "babe" all night... and i said, "Its Keri.. but im ok with you calling me babe" =) but i didnt have the guts to tell him i didnt even know his name!!( i eventually asked someone at work the next day what his name was lol)!!! So i ran inside got dressed and he walked me to my car, when i went to say good bye... we leaned in to hug, instead it turned into a kiss! <3
From that day one we hung out EVERY DAY every night together never apart.... My heart was so big and inlove but yet so scared.... "Could this be it?? " no too soon... so days turned into a year, and a year turned into 4... and after 4 after a hard 4 years fighting for him for him to just be ALL MINE , we finally gave it one last chance, we decided... lets move out on our own and see how it goes... so we did! We got our first apartment in the end of Aug. of 2008! We were so excited to be on our own... to do things the way we wanted to.. Leave our shoes in where we wanted and leave a basket of laundry un attended if we wanted to... but little did we know our lives were going to take a dramatic turn once again!!!! after only being "on our own" for 3 weeks... i was late.... yes.. late.. but nothing new to me... i was ALWAYS late.. but this time.. i was a little later then normal... so one day Sept 10th, 2009 to be exact, when ben went to work at 7:30 am, i ran to the store to grab a test (just to ease my mind and remind myself i was ok) I took it... immediatly... 2 lines appeared... (mind u this was at 8 am) i was like.... no way... theres no way.... so i took the 2nd one... same results... i sat there and was so scared... but so happy! once again my heart filled with love! I called Ben at work... and (him having to be quiet) i yelled in the phone... "Babe...i am PREGNANT!!!!!" and he said in the most quietest voice "uhh ok" and i asked him what i should do... and he told me to go to my sisters! so i did! i ran there!!!!
So... here we are in love and on our own and pregnant! Days turned into months and be4 we knew it we had a BEAUTIFUL little boy! Benjamin John Jr. 8 pounds 13 oz, 21 and 3/4 inches long, born at 3:08 am on May 4th, 2009! I looked at Ben as he held our baby and cried.. at that point i realized, here he is... here is the man of my dreams, my world my everything the father of my son! I knew from that day on i was going to be with this man FOREVER!
The first few weeks were hard, but Ben stood behind me and helped me with everything and when i say everything.. i mean he would get up with me in the middle of the night (several times) to nurse Benny cause he said he felt bad because he feels he should be up too "helping" (but i think he was just amazed in our little boy and didnt want to miss a beat in his little life, a smile, a giggle, a sleeping moment)
We moved into a bigger apartment and at that point ben told me i didnt have to work anymore... he wanted me to give my full attention to Benny, and one day the rest of our family, and that he would provide! He would take on the stress of the bills, i just had to take the stress of the house and children! (What an awesome man!!!) so i did! a few days later.. we decided "Lets get married" so we went out got a ring and now we were engaged! (In Novemeber of 2010) Trying to pick a day.. we said... lets just do it... and fast! so we did! May 29th 2010 (yes only 6 months later) we had the 2nd most AMAZING day of our lives and now we are Husband and wife! Wow! husband and wife... to this day i still cant believe i am married to the most AMAZING and hard working man there is! On that day, i couldnt even tell you how excited i was to be married to him! He was mine! all mine!!!
After planning and paying for this wedding all on our own we decided to start looking for a new home... one to buy! We looked and looked and found some potential homes but none that had "Our name, Zimbleman" on it...But here it was under our noses the whole time!!! We have spent days, holidays, summer night walks here! It was my parents house! So on October 2010 (yes 4 months later) we BOUGHT our VERY 1ST HOUSE!!!!!! This is it! Life is complete!!! My Husband, My son, my life is complete! I couldnt ask for more!!!! Life was just to perfect! At that point i couldnt ask for more... but one day... as ben and i were talking we decided Benny needed a sibling! we wanted them close in age, so we started to try in November! That month passed so did decmeber, but when January came (a little frustrated i wasnt pregnant yet) and after (no lie) dozens of pregnancy tests... i told myself... i will buy just ONE more only ONE!!!! And when i got home from the grocery store, i didnt even put away any of my groceries i just so happened to have to pee!!! lol! so i ran in and didnt waste any time... and the results were positive~ POSITIVE!!!! I was going to be a mom of 2! how exciting!!! It was rough in the begining of this pregnancy a little rougher then it was with benny.. but i got through it...
So here we are 6 years later, In our Home inlove more then the first day we fell inlove, with a beautiful son, and another little boy on the way (due in Oct) Life couldnt get any Better! I owe it all to God and my wonderful, loving husband who has given it all to me! Given me more then i would ever imagine plus more! I cant wait to see what God has set for us in the future! One thing i pray for is bens salvation, then i can say that life would be better then Perfect!
I love my husband, and i love our boys! Times can be hard but we wouldnt be as strong if we didnt have to battle through them together!
*Ben, you are my all, you are my everything! Life is complete with you in it <3 I love your more and more EVERY day!and i love our boys more and more every day! Thankyou for them! and Thankyou for being an awesome provider and an awesome husband and an awesome BEST FRIEND!* XOXO!
Its been a long but yet quick 6 years! <3
*Our story of Love*
* This pic is the first pic of us together on the first night we hung out*
*Always together*
*Young and in Love*
*The hottest redneck alive*
*4 years later still SO inlove*
*a day later.. our baby boy was born*
* <3 the men in my life*
*husband and wife*
*so inlove*
Monday, May 16, 2011
2 years!
May 4th 2009.. the day my world changed!
This was the day i became a mother to my son Benjamin John Jr. 8 pounds 13 oz 21 and 3/4 inches long! the day i met you my heart grew so big and inlove with u.... today you are 2! where did the time go? i feel like i just was holding your tiny little body in my arms! Teh things you do and the things u say i fall more and more in love with you every day! You are so smart!
You talk so much... your so smart .. you repeat EVERYTHING i say and respond in the sweetest voice! You love your mama and everyone else too! You say hello to everyone that passes your way and even screams hello when they dont respond to you! You make me giggle all day and snuggle time is the best! You love your cars, trucks, choo choos, bats balls, being outside... anything boys do you do it 100%! Your heart is caring for when someone is crying you ask "Wats wrong" followed by a big hug.. sometimes ihave to trick u and pretend cry to get a hug from you cause you are so busy in life! But i always tell u i am joking and we giggle and kiss and you go on your busy little 2 year old day! You are a picky eater but so was your dad... your skinny and i worry about u but you are as healthy as they get! You are perfect in EVERY way! i Love you my little baby boy.. and you will forever be my baby boy! even when you are 21 years old and towering over me and your life is still so busy i pray i will still get my hugs and kisses from you! Mama Loves you and i always will!!!
xoxo
This was the day i became a mother to my son Benjamin John Jr. 8 pounds 13 oz 21 and 3/4 inches long! the day i met you my heart grew so big and inlove with u.... today you are 2! where did the time go? i feel like i just was holding your tiny little body in my arms! Teh things you do and the things u say i fall more and more in love with you every day! You are so smart!
You talk so much... your so smart .. you repeat EVERYTHING i say and respond in the sweetest voice! You love your mama and everyone else too! You say hello to everyone that passes your way and even screams hello when they dont respond to you! You make me giggle all day and snuggle time is the best! You love your cars, trucks, choo choos, bats balls, being outside... anything boys do you do it 100%! Your heart is caring for when someone is crying you ask "Wats wrong" followed by a big hug.. sometimes ihave to trick u and pretend cry to get a hug from you cause you are so busy in life! But i always tell u i am joking and we giggle and kiss and you go on your busy little 2 year old day! You are a picky eater but so was your dad... your skinny and i worry about u but you are as healthy as they get! You are perfect in EVERY way! i Love you my little baby boy.. and you will forever be my baby boy! even when you are 21 years old and towering over me and your life is still so busy i pray i will still get my hugs and kisses from you! Mama Loves you and i always will!!!
xoxo
Wednesday, April 6, 2011
9 years!
9 years ago God took home a very special woman....
A woman who had it all... a woman who had a wonderful life... a woman who had the BEST husband and a woman who i will never forget! My mom mom <3
Ever since the other day i have been thinking about her so much... i know my sister has too! She was just such a big person in our lives... not only our grandmother but a mother at times as well! She was an outstanding person... she loved and cared for everyone... <3
I find myself often thinking of the things she taught me as a little kid... and i wish that she was around to teach me the things as an adult.... I know she would be proud of who i am today and the things i have... i know she would love my husband and son as much as i do! I always tell Ben... babe i wish you could of met her just one time... one time... you would of been inlove! Thats just the person she is! her Giggles the way her body bounced when she giggled... her jokes.. her songs... her hands... .her heart! I know she would of been so proud of both my sisters children and mine on how smart they are... she was always so excited to see them learn new things and grow up! I miss her so much!
I dont ever want to forget the things she told me and the things she taught me...and everything about her.... but i find myself forgetting as i get older... and it frustrates me that i just cant remember.... Here are a few good memories with her...
Her hands: always so dry due to her hands ALWAYS being in water cause she always cleaned... but her nails were always painted a pink... like a soft pink... and her toes matched too!
her pretty white hair... always soft and sliky.. it must of been the Yellow brush she used (that now my sister still has)
The cute things she said... that to this day i sware are the right way to say it because she told me so... ex: Jommies! when she agreed with something she said "Ohh En How" lol!
She was the only one i EVER heard call my Uncle Joe... Joey...( i know she was happy to see him when he came home in Heaven to her)
Many other things...
I wish she coud be here today... i know we have alot of questions for her and i know there are alot of unanswered ones that she will have forever!
I love you mom mom! You were perfect in every way.. even though you hated your picture taken... in everysingle one you were stunning! I love you! Until we see eachother again!
<3 <3
A woman who had it all... a woman who had a wonderful life... a woman who had the BEST husband and a woman who i will never forget! My mom mom <3
Ever since the other day i have been thinking about her so much... i know my sister has too! She was just such a big person in our lives... not only our grandmother but a mother at times as well! She was an outstanding person... she loved and cared for everyone... <3
I find myself often thinking of the things she taught me as a little kid... and i wish that she was around to teach me the things as an adult.... I know she would be proud of who i am today and the things i have... i know she would love my husband and son as much as i do! I always tell Ben... babe i wish you could of met her just one time... one time... you would of been inlove! Thats just the person she is! her Giggles the way her body bounced when she giggled... her jokes.. her songs... her hands... .her heart! I know she would of been so proud of both my sisters children and mine on how smart they are... she was always so excited to see them learn new things and grow up! I miss her so much!
I dont ever want to forget the things she told me and the things she taught me...and everything about her.... but i find myself forgetting as i get older... and it frustrates me that i just cant remember.... Here are a few good memories with her...
Her hands: always so dry due to her hands ALWAYS being in water cause she always cleaned... but her nails were always painted a pink... like a soft pink... and her toes matched too!
her pretty white hair... always soft and sliky.. it must of been the Yellow brush she used (that now my sister still has)
The cute things she said... that to this day i sware are the right way to say it because she told me so... ex: Jommies! when she agreed with something she said "Ohh En How" lol!
She was the only one i EVER heard call my Uncle Joe... Joey...( i know she was happy to see him when he came home in Heaven to her)
Many other things...
I wish she coud be here today... i know we have alot of questions for her and i know there are alot of unanswered ones that she will have forever!
I love you mom mom! You were perfect in every way.. even though you hated your picture taken... in everysingle one you were stunning! I love you! Until we see eachother again!
<3 <3
Wednesday, March 9, 2011
some thoughts...
So here are some thoughts of mine....
I went to the store today not only is my son a maniac but i just cant seem to get some "retail therepy" with a wacky one year old yelling and pulling things down and screaming through out the store... so my question is... how am i going to do it with 2? My anxeity shoots through the roof when i thin of it.. how i cant even go to the post office with 1.. how am i going to do it with 2? (possibly 3 or 4) I know that i wanted this i wanted 2 babies close in age so they could be friends... but the way i have been feeling with being sick not able to catch up on the wash and cleaning... i feel "not as excited" that i am pregnant with this one as i was with Benny... maybe because i know what to expect and its not something new... why does it have to be 9 months long... i understand that the baby has to grow and get healthy but come on... lol
On another note.. i am excited for a few things this summer...
The BEACH! i can not wait to plop my butt in my beach chair and put my feet in the sand... honestly.. i dont care at that point that i will be at my middle of my pregnancy.... and by the end of the summer i will be 8-9 months... (and prob swollen) but to think of the beach makes me so excited! I love the beach! when i see pics on Fb of the Beach or pics of anytype of summer activity it makes me excited.. i look at pics that were taken in my back yard of my pool and green grass! I cant wait to see green grass and have some crabs out on my patio with my family! I also cant wait to celebrate Benny's 2nd birthday! WOW! i cant believe he will be 2 years old. i feel like i just told everyone i was pregnant with him! ALso another good thing about this summer is i have more family i get to spend it with.... i have a older but new sister to enjoy these things with... I am excited for these thigns! Did i mention i am excited for summer? lol!
I have alot of things to do in my house be4 then.. i would like to paint the trim outside of my house.. because right now it is ugly baby poop orange... and we want to put down some grass seed to make our grass fuller (idk why ben wants that.. hes the one mowing it) but hey w/e we need to paint our hallway and possibly redo the upstairs... (all depending if we are having a girl or not) Cause if we have a girl she will get Ben and my room and Ben and I will be moving upstairs.. and if we move upstairs that means putting in an alarm system cause otherwise i wont sleep! But if we have a boy... we will make the boys share a room until they are older or the next sibling comes...=)
I am thankful for everything i have... i may complain about it.. but i love everything i have! I love my husband and my growing family! I love that i have a house that i can do these things with!
I went to the store today not only is my son a maniac but i just cant seem to get some "retail therepy" with a wacky one year old yelling and pulling things down and screaming through out the store... so my question is... how am i going to do it with 2? My anxeity shoots through the roof when i thin of it.. how i cant even go to the post office with 1.. how am i going to do it with 2? (possibly 3 or 4) I know that i wanted this i wanted 2 babies close in age so they could be friends... but the way i have been feeling with being sick not able to catch up on the wash and cleaning... i feel "not as excited" that i am pregnant with this one as i was with Benny... maybe because i know what to expect and its not something new... why does it have to be 9 months long... i understand that the baby has to grow and get healthy but come on... lol
On another note.. i am excited for a few things this summer...
The BEACH! i can not wait to plop my butt in my beach chair and put my feet in the sand... honestly.. i dont care at that point that i will be at my middle of my pregnancy.... and by the end of the summer i will be 8-9 months... (and prob swollen) but to think of the beach makes me so excited! I love the beach! when i see pics on Fb of the Beach or pics of anytype of summer activity it makes me excited.. i look at pics that were taken in my back yard of my pool and green grass! I cant wait to see green grass and have some crabs out on my patio with my family! I also cant wait to celebrate Benny's 2nd birthday! WOW! i cant believe he will be 2 years old. i feel like i just told everyone i was pregnant with him! ALso another good thing about this summer is i have more family i get to spend it with.... i have a older but new sister to enjoy these things with... I am excited for these thigns! Did i mention i am excited for summer? lol!
I have alot of things to do in my house be4 then.. i would like to paint the trim outside of my house.. because right now it is ugly baby poop orange... and we want to put down some grass seed to make our grass fuller (idk why ben wants that.. hes the one mowing it) but hey w/e we need to paint our hallway and possibly redo the upstairs... (all depending if we are having a girl or not) Cause if we have a girl she will get Ben and my room and Ben and I will be moving upstairs.. and if we move upstairs that means putting in an alarm system cause otherwise i wont sleep! But if we have a boy... we will make the boys share a room until they are older or the next sibling comes...=)
I am thankful for everything i have... i may complain about it.. but i love everything i have! I love my husband and my growing family! I love that i have a house that i can do these things with!
Tuesday, February 8, 2011
Gods gift
Genesis 1:28
God blessed them and said to them, "Be fruitful and increase in number; fill the earth and subdue it. Rule over the fish of the sea and the birds of the air and over every living creature that moves on the ground.
God has blessed me so much! He gave me an awesome Husband and a perfect little boy! I dont think that my life would be complete with out either of them!
Every day i thank him for what i have.... and pray for the things i dont have...The one thing I have been praying for is another baby... it took longer then i thought... but i know it is all in Gods time.. i know that when it was the right time... the perfect time it will happen... as much as i told myself that.. it still hurt i wasn't pregnant yet... i mean everyone else was and everyone else could just sneeze and they would be pregnant... but i know that my life was pre~planned... and everything had "a time" In the mean time i kept myself busy by cleaning playing with my little boy, family things.. meeting new family members and friends! I told myself that if this is the life God had intended me to have i would be thankful for the family i have... and i was... But still in the back of my head i wasnt satisfied...(sounds horrible but i wasnt) and i think God was trying to tell me the whole time to be patient...(one thing i am horrible horrible horrible at) so on Feb 6th 2011... i just couldnt wait anymore... i had to buy just 1 more test.. and i told myself that this would be the last one... cause i just didnt want to be disapointed anymore...
I was so excited... that when i got home a put away only 2 out of my 5 bags f groceries and when i came across the bag with the test in it i just so happened to have to pee..(sorry if thats too tmi) so i went in and BOOM! it was positive! i couldnt be happier! I literally bounced out of the bathroom and threw the test at Ben! He was excited as well! we called everyone we could think of and everyone we could think of called us! I spun the Benny around in circles.. and i know he was wondering why his mom was such a nut! but he still loved it and laughed and jumped with me!!!
I am ready for the big belly, the mood swings, cravings, going to the bathroom every 30 seconds, morning sickness (well in my case ALL DAY sickness), and that everlasting love for a new person in my life! I am nervous about being a mom of 2... juggling the mom tasks with 2 babies attached to me... late nights...
But i know when God is in control... i know he wont give me anything i cant handle~
Thankyou God for giving me this life inside me! Without you it wouldnt be possible! Thankyou for creating this little person in the most perfect way, so perfect to fit in our family.... Thankyou
God blessed them and said to them, "Be fruitful and increase in number; fill the earth and subdue it. Rule over the fish of the sea and the birds of the air and over every living creature that moves on the ground.
God has blessed me so much! He gave me an awesome Husband and a perfect little boy! I dont think that my life would be complete with out either of them!
Every day i thank him for what i have.... and pray for the things i dont have...The one thing I have been praying for is another baby... it took longer then i thought... but i know it is all in Gods time.. i know that when it was the right time... the perfect time it will happen... as much as i told myself that.. it still hurt i wasn't pregnant yet... i mean everyone else was and everyone else could just sneeze and they would be pregnant... but i know that my life was pre~planned... and everything had "a time" In the mean time i kept myself busy by cleaning playing with my little boy, family things.. meeting new family members and friends! I told myself that if this is the life God had intended me to have i would be thankful for the family i have... and i was... But still in the back of my head i wasnt satisfied...(sounds horrible but i wasnt) and i think God was trying to tell me the whole time to be patient...(one thing i am horrible horrible horrible at) so on Feb 6th 2011... i just couldnt wait anymore... i had to buy just 1 more test.. and i told myself that this would be the last one... cause i just didnt want to be disapointed anymore...
I was so excited... that when i got home a put away only 2 out of my 5 bags f groceries and when i came across the bag with the test in it i just so happened to have to pee..(sorry if thats too tmi) so i went in and BOOM! it was positive! i couldnt be happier! I literally bounced out of the bathroom and threw the test at Ben! He was excited as well! we called everyone we could think of and everyone we could think of called us! I spun the Benny around in circles.. and i know he was wondering why his mom was such a nut! but he still loved it and laughed and jumped with me!!!
I am ready for the big belly, the mood swings, cravings, going to the bathroom every 30 seconds, morning sickness (well in my case ALL DAY sickness), and that everlasting love for a new person in my life! I am nervous about being a mom of 2... juggling the mom tasks with 2 babies attached to me... late nights...
But i know when God is in control... i know he wont give me anything i cant handle~
Thankyou God for giving me this life inside me! Without you it wouldnt be possible! Thankyou for creating this little person in the most perfect way, so perfect to fit in our family.... Thankyou
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